[MsNobleEleanor]

I am in a slump, an extreme non-interest-don't-give-a-crap, slump. I am mostly fed up with College and education altogether. I went into the wrong program thinking it's for me. It wasn't. I have no skill in art or have the patience for. I failed one class already and might fail the other. Whatever.

My GPA probably sucks.

I am switching Programs and the Program I am in, well won't allow me to do certain things. Again, I will only be doing four classes. I'm beginning to think if I don't smarten up I will never get into the Program I want next fall. I did so well in my other two classes because it was research and write-ups.

I have to do this presentation slides thing and record my voice. That is the last final thing I need to do, it's due tonight.

I had to cancel my presentation this morning (I really enjoy giving presentations) because I had a job interview so I bull shitted my Professor so she allowed me to record my voice and put it in the presentation.

I feel this is a waste of my time to keep going to next term. Thinking of just dropping out. After 6 months it's required that I start paying back my student loan. Well, I can't just drop out because no way in hell I want them to say, "you can't apply for student loans because of your last one..." or some bull shit excuse.

So, I am doing classes in this Program I have switched to, to get credits and get by. I hope these classes allow me to increase my GPA. I wont hear back from the other Program till mid-Febuary or early March and I will cry if I don't get in.

On top of this, first year and first term alone was complete BS drama from students who just came out of high school and I had to listen to them complain and bitch. So what did I do, decided to not go to my classes. I did the work online. One of my classes I only missed 3 days. My one I never showed up for 3 months and I failed that class. I failed it because I wasn't spending money on one single class each week for something I will never use ever.

I am not sure if anyone else has run into these problems. At this point I'm going ahead and applying to work for full time. Don't care much for College anymore.