[frisoni98]

I am having serious depression problems. I feel horrible all the time, I feel like my existence is pointless. I am 15,and I should be enjoying my "best years", but I simply can't. I have no joy, no luck and no motivation to carry on. I don't even know what's keeping me alive.

I needed to share my pain with someone close to me, someone who loves me, so I told my parents. They told me it's just hormones and that everyone goes through this. I told them not everyone goes through this. I can see them everyday. They are happy about their lives and about themselves, and they always have it better than me. That is the reason I'm filled with all this rage.
So I asked them to take me to psychiatrist or to get me anti-depressive pills.

They didn't even want to hear about it. They said me to be happy with what I've got...it was the point that almost made me cry...to be happy with what I've got.

And what exactly is that I've got? Why should I be happy about myself? There is nothing good about me!!!

I have lost almost every good emotion I had. I forgot the last time I enjoyed myself, and I have become a very unpleasant person!

I want to change! I want to destroy these emotions inside me!
I asked my parents, people I love and respect the most, for help and they didn't do a thing!

And I thought It can't be any worse...