[Ral.]

Hi again Juan,

I'm sorry to hear about how you're feeling right now, but I want to reassure you that it's not normal to feel this way and things will get better, I promise.

I'm glad to see that you used my suggestion and you created a journal to understand what's making you feel the way that you do feel and why. The feelings you seem to be getting are very aggressive and I can see why you're getting upset and depressed about them. My suggestion to you now would be to take the journal, with the feelings you've accumulated and go to see a therapist, this may sound scary but with what you're going through you do not deserve to feel alone.

I remember you saying in a different post that you were going to discuss how you feel with your close friend, did you ever do that? If so, what was his response? If he embraced it, is it not possible for you to have him come with you to the specialist? It's good to have a friend supporting you when you go so you don't feel as intimidated going into the room, the first step is always the hardest but I assure you this is the best thing for you to do.

If you decide not to listen to me, can I ask you to PM/VM me and we'll have a proper talk about everything you're going through? You seem to have posted various threads with a similar overall feel to it, and I'd really appreciate it if you would let me help you through this.

I hope to hear from you soon,
~Jack.