[Lovehatelife23]

Im lost once again in this misery of life. I've been together with my boyfriend since August 2012 & its been a while & we had our hard times but now im thinking we rushed it to fast. His mother still hate me. My best friend is like getting irritated with him & i blow it all off. My boyfriend does the same thing & im like WTF! Im in the middle of this & i cant tell them one thing or everyone will get upset & it will start drama again. My boyfriend just had a 3some with me & my best friend which i think was a HUGE BAD IDEA!!! Now its gotten worse where all i hear is her name. I tell him stop constantly & he doesnt understand. I'm trying to get a job & get into college in January 2014. My boyfriend wont stay @ his own home that his mom bought him which is a 3Bed 2bath & he has a cat. He follows me around like a puppy dog. He constantly complains bout his job which he works @ walmart. I'm once again hiding my TRUE FEELINGS inside of me until i BURST into FLAMES like i did in 2007. Between living with my parents & helping him out & hangout out with others just is so COMPLICATED! Im not selfish but wat am i suppose to do when stuff hits like this. Im hurting & i cant talk to no one. my parents are blowing me off again like before. I dont understand why is it like this.