[Kate*]

I want to walk into your office and have you talk me out of dropping out, but we both know that you can't really argue with the logic, as irrational as it is it makes sense. I'm seriously 4 mouse clicks away from giving up on my dream and you don't want to know what's going to happen if I go through with that. And so much for not being so hard on myself: The one time I try, I SERIOUSLY overestimate based on this I'm not nearly hard enough on myself.

I really do want to do that, but part of me knows that I never will.

As wrong as I want to believe they were, apparently they were all right. Nothing about me is okay, I will never be or do anything that I want because I am doomed to fail at it and my best will always fall just short enough of making it that I'll think I have a chance until I realize that the pattern of failure is repeating itself once again. I don't know why I bother wasting my time trying at anything. I QUIT!