Hi, so this is the first time I've ever wrote on a help website but I need help and I need to know I'm not going crazy!! I have been suffering from anxiety disorders and depression for about 4 years now (my parents divorced when I was 6 and my granny whom I was very close with died 4 years ago which I think triggered it). It always gets worse at the start of each year when I'm starting something new. I have started college and am I'm week 6 and am really struggling with being a way from home.. I cry a lot and get several panic attacks thinking about where I am.
Last night I was at home and my whole family got together for dinner for my birthday and out of nowhere I got the worst panic attack I've ever gotten. I couldn't even stay sitting at the kitchen table when everyone was eating because I thought I was going to be sick. I lay upstairs in bed and couldn't breathe. When I did get up I got extremely dizzy and my vision got blurry. This has never happened to me before. Then wen I tried to go to sleep I couldn't stop shaking and I couldn't breathe properly.. Every time I tried to sleep I woke myself up in a panic...
What I want to know is do you think this was just another panic attack or was it a nervous breakdown?
I'm so embarrassed Im still in bed at one o'clock in the day I don't want to see anyone. And I'm terrified of it happening again.
The panic was a build up of everything.. College, I get anxious when my family get together because I want everyone to get along (even tho I no they do), my emotions being all over the place, and thinking that I'm not ever going to be able to cope with this so is the only resource death. (Even tho I don't want to die)
Ok I think that's it...
Thanks for reading and I'd really appreciate any comments of wisdom
