[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I agree with what the above two posters are saying. I am so sorry that you are having a tough/hard time right now. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this. I used to know someone who was in the exact same position you are in now. Have you tried sitting down with your host family and talking to them about your feelings/thoughts on everything that is happening to you right? If not, I highly suggest you try to do it now before the situation gets any worse. Communication is a key factor in situations like this. If there is no communication at all, then the situation will just keep getting worse and worse. That's why you need to have an open line of communication between you and your host family.

Just like what Robin (PSY) has said, this situation is only temporary, meaning, it won't last forever. In time, the situation will get a whole lot better.

I hope this helps you out some. Please stay strong and never give up hope.