Words cannot describe how deeply you embarrassed me tonight. What were you thinking? I've made peace with the fact that you're never going to change, and I've forgiven you for all the ways you hurt me in the past. But tonight I felt so ashamed of you. To have company witness you in such a pathetic state...I felt no compassion tonight. Only disgust.

I'm scared to hope I will ever have that much. It's almost better not to even try.