[Kate*]

I meant that I feel like I'm getting mixed messages and it's making me paranoid, not that I'm trying to decide to stay or go. I'm sorry she bothered you about this, I knew you were swamped today and specifically asked her NOT to do it if you were busy.

I feel like even if I don't want it to, my program is going to end tomorrow. I always said that if it didn't work and they threw me out, that I wanted you to tell me because you could be nice about it.

I need you to know that it feels like my entire life is going to fall apart if that happens. I'm not leaving voluntarily. Either you're throwing me out, you're passing me, or you're telling me what I need to fix and how to do it. I'm fine with fixing problems, I'm not fine with being lied to that there aren't any and then being told all of a sudden that I don't belong here because I didn't fix things that I didn't know were wrong!

And just so you know I HATE your chosen theory, and no matter who uses it on me, it makes me cry (again, can't tell if it's because I don't belong here or if I just don't like the frame the theory uses)