Hey Hun, just wanted to let you know that even though things suck right now, it gets better. Right now, I'm in a terrible situation too, and I just have to remind my self that everything bad has an end to it. I know how you feel about the urges. It's the worst. I've been having them a lot lately..and it sucks. What I do when I the urges come back, I listen to music. I turn up the volume so I can't hear anything else, and I just lay or sit there till I feel a little bit better. If you need anyone come talk to me. I would love to get to know you better
best of luck
