[TheBabyEater]

I'm falling for my best friend and we both have another boy/girlfriend. It's the only secret I have from him
Sometimes when I'm not thinking straight I wish his girlfriend would get away with killing herself so I can have him even though he's flat out said to me if she kills herself, he will kill himself too.
I've thought about already breaking up with my supportive, nice, smart, funny, sexy, perfect boyfriend just so my friend will ask why so I can say 'because he wasn't you'
My current boyfriend should be the one I want. My friend.. he drinks, he sometimes puts off an uncaring personality, does the most twisted things like wanting to try cannabalism, and he's had drunken one night stands even though he has a girlfriend.
I've almost posted a new thread on here about nothing but him. Didn't hit post because it was silly.
I cant believe I bothered whiting that out. or typing that out. or posting it. or thinking it.