[Lelola]

Spend time apart with no contact. Try to reach out to any friends you haven't talked to recently. Focus on things like school and working right now and then after a week or two, see how much you truly miss him. I found that it was easier after a week when the scar wasn't fresh that I didn't feel like I really need them anymore.

Also, make sure you blame the right person too. Remember it is not Lucy or your own fault that he decided to play both of you. It was a conscious decision on his apart. I will be very, very cold in when I say that he probably fed the same lines he is feeding you to her in order to try and keep both of you. When he says things like "I tried to leave her but she couldn't handle it" is an excuse and an attempt to justify cheating. He is trying to shift the blame off of him.

As for the feeling to need to check his phone, ten to one he is just smarter about it. He can quickly delete texts now, hide it under a boy's name, use a texting app, or messages them through the computer.

This is probably something you may not want to ask him, but if you do stay with him consider asking him to get an STD test as he was with her while with you.