ok so basically im not a teen anymore, but sometimes i still feel like one, i look like one too, so lately i've been having a hard time getting used to all the back to school thing, i know im 22, and on my last year at university, so i thought i'll have everything figured it out by now, (living on my own, school, homeworks) but thats what i thought, i don't know whats on with me lately i just dont feel right, sometimes i find myself trying to smile in the outside when feeling like a burn sadness in the inside, i get to go to school, and do homeworks and pretend everything's just fine, i look forward to the weekend when i get to go home and see my family, i hate doing homeworks, getting up early to go to school i rather just sleep and sleep and sleep forever, i'm afraid of having thoughts in my head not about suicide, but what if what im not good enough on my studies, what if im not talent enough to make it, what if i was wrong? what if this sadness never goes away and just keep getting worse,? do i really need proffesional help? how am i supposed to tell others i feel this way when im supposed to be a grown up now?, i don't feel like talking to anyone about it, because im supposed to be okay, i pretend to be okay so im okay at everyones eyes. i dont know if this makes sense it really doesnt for me.
