[mindflower]

Guess that's karma, guess I deserve this, yes? I couldn't ever keep my mouth shut, so finally when we aren't talking anymore, and you forget I exist, you wait until me and Cody could have another chance to be together to tell him that I gave you a blowjob.
....dude. like. WHAT THE HELL. I NEVER told anyone about that day because you didn't want to ever regret it. Come on, seriously, how long after it happened did you already regret it? An hour? Maybe the afternoon? A couple days? Then what? Nothing, you hated the idea of ever giving me that chance. And the only way to get back at me was this.
wasn't it.
to ruin Cody and I. He isn't fucking talking to me anymore. I've lost another guy, another one that I can't speak to. Great. This is wonderful.
Matthew, okay. I love you, and its killing me, but I know you don't love me. And once again you've proved it.
Thanks. Really.