[Chuuya]

Hey there,

To answer your question at the end, I think you can get past what you've been through in the past months. This is one chapter of your life, and you have so much ahead of you. You're strong, and you have a great support system behind you, like your friends. You can do this. Unfortunately, there will always be bumps in the road, and curve balls thrown at you. There will always be ups and downs, it's life, but the thing about life is that it goes on. No matter what is thrown at you, you have the ability to get through it. Don't ever forget that.

It sounds like you've been through a lot as well, with the fire, physical problems, having suicidal thoughts, and self harm as well. I think it was a great idea to talk to your friends and family, it was a huge step forward. Even if your parents didn't seem very concerned. With your therapist, sometimes not every therapist is going to help you. There's a lot of them out there who have different methods of helping people. Have you ever thought about seeing another one, or talking to your parents about it again? I think it's important that your parents see that this isn't something they can sweep under the rug and pretend isn't there. It's affecting you in negative ways, with the suicidal thoughts and self harm. That's not something that can be ignored. They need to step up and help you through this. It might help to write them a letter, or sit down with them one night and talk to them about it and tell them about the suicidal thoughts and self harm. You could also print out some information on self harm and depression so they can know a little more about it, and maybe take it more seriously this time.

I myself have some physical problems and they are really annoying, but remember you're not alone in this. I think it's great that you have your friends as well and lean on them when you need to.

We all have slip ups or relapses. I've had them, and a lot of them here on TeenHelp have as well. They are a part of recovery, and you just have to pick yourself up and keep trying because it's not time to give up yet. It's amazing that you've gone two months with out self harming, it's a huge achievement, don't downgrade it! Be proud that you're doing what you can.

If you ever feel the urge to self harm, I also recommend taking a look at the Alternatives to Self Harm. I use this list quite a lot and it is extremely helpful. Not everything will help everyone though, so if something doesn't help you, try to find something else that might help you!

I really hope that this helped you, and I have no doubt that you can get through this. Keep getting up when life gets you down, you're strong and you can do it. Take care, and if you ever want to talk feel free to send me a message! My inbox is always open.