This has been a very difficult 7 days. But I've done it!

I've been so tempted to cut lately.. My blades have been way to dull to cut deep like I used to... My deeper scars on my legs are fading ... It's so weird... I dread them because it's nice to wear shorts sometimes.. But I cant.. But all I wanna do is get my razor blade and cut until I bleed. .. But at the same time I wanna be able to wear shorts, so people will stop thinking im weird >_< Idk what to do... I hate people seeing my cuts.. Bleh