[Stacey]

It's great you've notified people who are trying to help you. The website I offered you had a phone number, and if you are really that unsure about attending a meeting just calling the helpline may be able to offer you some information. At least that way, it's even more anonymous, and you can always hang up if you panic! I really think they will be able to offer you some great advice.
Either way, It's great to hear that you've gotten other people involved in getting this under control, and I hope everything starts to get better for you!