[Hellokitty14]

I'm wondering because I was sexually mutilated when I was 5 by a really weird creepy psychopath. It was pretty traumatic still have the injuries from it and I don't remember the incident at all. I think it was too hard to process at that age so I blocked it out. But still they think it has to do with how I think I'm a girl. When it doesn't I used to look to my sister and mom thinking I'd grow up to be like them and before I went to school I actually really didn't know I was a boy because I had long hair like my sister and mom I didn't even know why I was set apart differently from them. I've always felt this way. But when I went to school I just was more aware that I felt I fit with the female populations and its always been hard for me to really recognized the difference between me and a normal girl as my parents would say. They know I have ks but they just focus on the fact that I am academically challenged because of it. But that its because I need to deal with what happened which I really don't want to deal with something I don't remember nor do I want to remember. But as long as I don't see a psych for that issue they don't care about my opinion. It seems. But really it doesn't usually have anything to do with each other does it?