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I gave up self harm a long time ago it seems, I also struggled with anorexia, and smoking weed. I found myself focusing on the self harm more when I kept track of the last time I did it. I know the reasons and logic behind keeping track (I used to do it too), but I found that all it did was cause me to think about it more and crave the feeling and relief it gave me more.

Please know that I am in no way trying to diminish your accomplishments. That's amazing, and you should be so proud of yourself! It can be such a difficult thing to break the cycle of self harm.

What helped me was the shame (believe it or not), I felt so ashamed of my scars and my struggles. I wanted to feel beautiful, and my scars made me feel ugly and disgusting. I wanted to feel confident, and the self harm stole that from me. Every time I wanted to self harm and DIDN'T, I rewarded myself. I made sure to reward myself with a special smoothie, or tea. Something I only did when I resisted the urge to harm myself. It was my form of self loving.

Now it is years later and I no longer desire to self harm because I have reached the point where I love how feeling confident feels, and not feeling self-concious in my own skin. It is an amazing feeling, and I want that for you too.

I BELIEVE IN YOU!

If you need to chat or have questions, please feel free to message me.