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For a very long time I've had serious problems with my attention span. Nothing can keep my attention unless I'm doing multiple things at once otherwise I just get fed up and have to go do something else and then after a while I get bored of doing that too and move onto the next thing and then the next thing. I like playing computer games as it's my way of relaxing and so on. I'm a pretty big gamer nerd and I enjoy playing them a lot and in the past I'd play them for several hours straight after college but now I can barely keep playing a game for 30 minutes before I have to suddenly get up from my seat and do something else for a moment to 'refresh' myself and even then I can only continue for probably about 10-15 more minutes or not even at all because my attention to the game goes right out of the window.

When I was at college I had huge attention issues then and when lectures were going on I was just there trying to pay attention but was too busy wriggling around in my seat or doodling on my notebook so I could try and concentrate. Any time a tutor would talk for a prolonged period of time I'd feel my eyes dropping into the land of sleep and especially if I couldn't fidget or do something practical.

When people like family and friends are talking to me face to face I have to fidget and play with something so I can try and listen to them properly because of I can't fidget or constantly do something with my hands I end up switching off or don't listen to them at all. Sometimes I can also be really impatient in talking to someone and half way through the conversation I'll either just finish their sentences for them or when I've asked them a question I'll interrupt them.

I suffer a lot of issues with my motivation and I have a rough time in trying to motivate myself to do anything. Anything that also involves a lot of focus and mental concentration such as when I had to do homework while I was at college, it was so hard to doand I'd constantly keep putting it off from completing it until the very last minute especially because my motivation levels would sink to the bottom of the ocean.

I don't know whether or not this is to do with depression or if it's that I have ADD or something similar. I managed to get an appointment with a doctor for next Wednesday but here's the thing, I've told my mum that I have this appointment but not what it's about because she can be very critical and will only shoot me down telling me I just have an overactive mind, maybe I do but I'd rather go see a doctor to make sure but the biggest problem for me is, how can I talk to my doctor about these thigns without revealing that I think it may be ADD/ADHD? If I'm wrong I'll feel quite daft if I suddenly go up to her and say, "I think I have ADD what do I do?" and then after everything it turns out that I don't. I want to find a way that I can just start up a conversation with her about it without actually mentioning that I think I may have ADD/ADHD. Any ideas? And has anyone had a problem like this before?

Any help would be appreciated.