[Kate*]

We started the same semester and she's now ahead of me because I failed a class by less than 5 points and you both say I lack empathy. I will scream this until somebody hears me I FEEL IT, but it doesn't translate. In fact you have no idea how strongly I feel it.

I assume someone will eventually confront her about the fact that she's 24 with the maturity level of a 12 year old in a PROFESSIONAL setting? otherwise I will never be vindicated.

I want to tell you so bad that I feel like one day it's just going to spill out, but I'm afraid of what the consequences of that would be. I'm sure I won't be hospitalized or anything like that, that was an unrealistic fear. I do know that I risk getting thrown out of the program that will lead to my dream job, (which I apparently can't do because of a personality flaw?!) or get ordered into counseling as a condition of staying in the program and even if it's free it's logistically not an option right now (believe me, if it was I would jump on it in a second. Either way I'm not willing to let that happen.

I have good insight, I can sit here and tell you why I do things all day, the problem is that you don't care why it only matters to you that I change them and I don't know how which you also won't tell me, so I don't see us getting anywhere.