[ShotaPrince]

I came out to my dad 2 months ago. It was a very serious conversation, including 2 hours of me crying. After I finally stopped crying to tell him the truth, he looked really shocked, like he was thinking really really hard and finally managed to say "...well... God loves everyone..." We are not a religious family, and he has never mentioned God in front of me before. I know that he still practices religion, but it never influenced his opinions about people. That's when i realized he was more comfortable with my twelve year old brother smoking weed than with me being a boy He refuses to talk about hormone therapy for me, even though it will be a HUGE part of my transitioning, he is always suspicious of my purchases online after buying a chest binder, he gets weirded out by me buying male clothing. Even worse, I'm actually passing as a boy now and he keeps introducing me as his daughter even though it clearly makes me uncomfortable. He won't stop calling me "she" he says things like "you girls" and "because you're a woman" even though I AM CLEARLY NOT A WOMAN ANYMORE! I've been obsessing over my gender identity for over two years now and my own father refuses to accept me as male. I've been shot down on hormone therapy and buying binders already, so I'm very scared of talking to him about it and I think that my gender identity is forcing us apart. I think that it would be so easy to make the transition. I have a brother who is nearly identical to me (but younger and shorter) with the same haircut, similar build, and feminine voice who no longer lives with my dad because of custody issues, so it would be super easy to pass me off as him. He could avoid using "he" and just use "they" or replace any pronouns with my name, but I wouldn't know how to go around asking him that. What do I do??