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Hey there,

I may not be transgender, but I do want to let you know that you aren't alone in this. It is possible that you are transgender, although this is something that you will have to determine, and this may take time. I will give you the link to our Queer Dictionaryto look through the gender identity section a bit. Maybe you will find something else there that fits you, if you don't think transgender does. But in the meantime, if you want to dress or act a certain way, by all means do. You are wonderful just the way you are and you have every right to identify as whatever you'd like to. It seems as if you do have some accepting friends around you who may also be able to help you out, so maybe you can speak to some of those trans friends and get their experiences as well. They probably would be willing to at least tell you a bit about what they went through and give you their ideas.

Try not to stress too much though, this is something that will get better in time. We have a lot of transgender people on the site too so I bet you'll have a really great support system!