I have been trying to figure out what gender I am for a long time and recently I've just been thinking so much about how badly I want to be a girl. I finally got the opportunity to get some girl clothing and... yeah. I loved it. I took a lot of photos, and I look beautiful. I even went online and chatted with people on camera, everyone was blown away when I revealed I was a boy. And that felt AMAZING.
It never has bothered me to be called "he" and everyone knows me as a male, and I'm totally fine with that. But... I'd prefer it if I was "she" instead. This is what makes me confused, the friends of mine who are trans all seem to have hated their biological sex, and felt "wrong" in their bodies. I feel great in mine, I just want to... upgrade, I guess.
I don't
mind my male body. Heck, I like it! Sometimes, it's a lot of fun to be big and macho and manly! But... I want even more to be feminine and girly and pretty. If I could snap my fingers and be a girl, poof, I'd do it in a heartbeat. But does that make me transgendered?
For the most part, online, where I can be whoever I want, I'm a girl to everyone, because it's what I really want. And right now I'm a very
confused girl. I don't really know where I "fit," if that makes any sense.
Any trans/genderqueer/anyone else folks out there have some advice for me?