Whenever I'm upset or stressing, instead of keying myself (always did that before), I've taken to drinking instead. It's not like five cups of vodka or glasses of wine in a day, but I fall back on alcohol as a way to relieve myself. I'll probably have one bottle of fruity alcoholic beverage or mix wine or coconut rum with Sprite in a day. If I feel like something warm, I'll brew vanilla coffee and put in some plain Baileys liquer. So, I'm not getting completely wasted.

But I want to know, what is this? How can I change it? I don't want to go back to keying my wrists, I've gone nearly nine months without doing that!