Hey, it's only as complicated as you make it out to be
First of all, having kind of an inner conflict on a subject can be normal. Both sides should get satisfied in the end so it doesn't escalate to an inner war. So ask yourself what you should do and if it is just waiting, then how long. We cannot answer that.
Secondly, you seem to be too concerned about what others may think about you. You can keep worrying about the oppinions of others and possibly miss on a great, possibly life changing, opportunity. Or you just do it
Cheers