Im am also so sorry you had to go through this. Im here if you need me.
I've never been sexually abused but I do know a lot about things like hallucinations. Try carrying around something(i suggest a necklace or bracelet) and whenever you think your having an episode just stare at that and say to yourself
This is real ,nothing else.
It helps you lose focus on what your going through.
I hope I helped
your a wonderful person and I want you to feel better
Im here if you need me