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Ariokage, you shouldn't have to worry about that, from what I can tell (and just from general assumptions about relationships) it's hard to judge what "good enough" and I high doubt you aren't good enough, you'd probably surprise yourself. It's a very natural thing to be worried about. There are ways to overcome this anxiety you are experiencing. you can either work through it together or you can talk to a counsellor if that is possible. One of my best friends has PTSD (including flashbacks and such) and just from hearing her experience I can imagine how you must be feeling. It'll definitely require a lot of patience, but working through some of those issues and building up your confidence slowly may help. I don't know if that really helps, but you can always PM me if you want to talk