[SamMarie]

Well, now that I see the girlfriend's perspective, it changes everything because you have PTSD and have been abused sexually. Also, you mentioned you only see each other a few months at a time? The problem I see is that you two are at different "points" in the relationship. I feel that you two might not last very long, to be openly honest. Your boyfriend is sexually deprived and impatient and you are mentally unstable to create any love especially physically. With these two different mindsets, you are pushing away from each other. It's even harder because you guys barely see each other. A few months at a time is pretty "annoying" and "lengthy". I don't know your background story, but If you are willing to eventually make love in the future, you're going to have to accept your past and learn to love on your own in the future. Let's be honest, patience and understanding can only stretch for so long, so, you need to be aware what kind of position you're putting yourself and your boyfriend. My intentions are not meant to be rude, but have you tried putting yourself through some kind of therapy for your anxiety, maybe medical treatment? I hope things get better and hopefully you two work out.