[mindflower]

Everyone makes things so hard for me when I want them to be so simple. I want Cody. I want Matthew. I want Matthew long-term. I just want closure with Cody so I can get over him and be with Matthew but that doesn't work right because I don't know what he feels for me if anything. I want Mimi to be happy and I honestly kind of wish she was with PJ because he makes her smile... so much. And they'd be just...good with each other.
And my teachers keep assigning more homework and I'm so freaking behind.
I've been really triggered lately.
Kinda thinking his parents like me more then he does.
My parents are so stupid.