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I had always hated my weight. I'm muscular, but I've always seen that as fat.

In seventh grade, I became tired of the bullying. So I decided to do something about it. It actually started as anxiety. I had anxiety about going to school and various other things. The anxiety lead to nearly puking on a daily basis and I had a fear of vomiting. So I figured that I might as well not put food into my mouth. After I realized I had lost a lot of weight, I wanted to keep going

EDNOS turned into Atypical Anorexia. I'm not in recovery yet. I'm still considered to be a normal weight, so I haven't gotten as much help.

The problem for me is the number on the scale; to me it's more than just a number. Now it's just an alternative for SI. If one is under control, the other isn't. I always lean on one of the two.