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Trust me, having a kid right now would detramentally affect my education. I also have no financial means to support a baby and if I was pregnant I would definitely have to choose whether I want to continue with school (and thus need to rely on family to support me and baby financially until I am done) or whether I want to drop out and get a job at a lower level level than what I am capable of/want.... So being pregnant isn't ideal right now. And not to mention that while this guy is my friend and he's an amazing guy I feel like he has no "real" prospects" right now career wise. i let it go because we're young so what ever, he'll make his mind up someday and theoretically stop selling himself short... But if I got pregnant by him I would be forever tied to a guy who may or may not ever amount to anything terribly impressive. It's not a deterrant for friendship or for loving him in a way that I don't love my friends.... It's just that on a family scale I feel that I deserve better and I want to know he's willing to live up to more before I'd ever necessarily want to have his child so that he could be the best possible example for a kid.... Not that it has to be HIS child, I'm just sharing what's on my mind concerning the matter