[mindflower]

Depressed. So depressed.
Its taking everything out of me.


Parts of me wish she knew about what really happened over the summer.
So when she says things like "oh, well its good you can't take pills, it gives me some reassurance", she could know how stupid she sounds.
There was no reassurance. I swallowed them. And ended up puking my way into the hospital. Let out the next night. 3:00 p.m. Sunday-9:40 p.m. Monday. One stupid mistake that should have worked.
That's why I can't take them. Not that I don't want to. Not like I love living and want to be here right now.
Cough syrup is great. I could drink a whole bottle right now.