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I got all worried because my birth control is out of whack and I had sex without a condom. He pulled out but some might of gotten in any how... I am just not worrying much cause it's always been fine before. But... the thing is that I kind of wish i was pregnant. I know its terrible to wish to be. He's not my boyfriend, I am still in university and that's bad enough without having to take care of a kid simultaneously given that I don't have much of a support system here, and when I think about pregnancy I've also thought "well, shit, I just lost a bunch of weight"... I know if I was pregnant it would detrimentally affect my education and by extension my career. And I am pretty sure that the guy would freak out. We've been hooking up on and off for 2-3 years and a part of me wishes we were together because we get along great and we have great sex but I also just don't want those feelings to develop because if they do I risk ruining a good friendship. I would especially like to see him to go college; if that happened it would put to rest a lot of qualms I have over seriously considering him as a "for real" partner.
But back to the pregnancy. I kind of wish I was. And I was wondering what I'd even do if I was? What would I tell him? How would the average guy react to hey guess what I'm pregnant if his friend was the one he knocked up?