[Lizzie]

I agree with what Psy said. You need to be getting help for how you are feeling. It is going to be next to impossible to get work done when you have suicidal feelings. So, I highly urge you to seek out a school counselor, your general practitioner or a psychologist to help guide you in the direction that is best for you right now.

University can be very rough on everyone, but I think what you are going through more than the normal amount of stress. I think once you start healing you will be able to focus more on your work. And like Psy said, keeping a positive mind and attitude about your work is very crucial. It can be very easy to think "what is this all for" even when you are not having suicidal thoughts. So, just try to keep your head up and seek some help.