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Am I developing a eating disorder ? - March 15th 2013, 01:57 PM

Well , for the past days my appetite has changed strongly .This morning i began to look myself in the mirror and i felt like my body was messed up.
I went and asked several people about my body. They told me I was fine but I kept seeing myself in the mirror and feeling I was all messed up.
So when i went downstairs for breakfast i didnt want to eat. I had to force myself to eat ( even though i only ate two spoons ). I felt so down and uncomfortable to eat anythign at all.
I was hugnry but wouldnt allow myself to eat. And before leaving to school and taking my depression medication I went into the bathroom and purged.
So also a few days before that i was in the school cafeteria an I felt triggerred. I was once again hungry but i couldnt eat. I went and got my lunch and forced myself to eat it, but then i felt reall guilty. As next block is lunch as i am currently in school im pretty afraid of feeling triggerred again and self-harming or such .
Does it seem i have or am developing a eating disorder?

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