[Lamia]

Who the fuck am I? I thought I knew, and then that was torn down two months ago, and then, recently, I thought I knew again, and now that's being torn down and replaced by this doubt. I don't know what brought it on, maybe the fact that I decided to actually do some research and just got completely overwhelmed, maybe because I have therapy tomorrow, for the first time, to try and deal with this, and part of me still just wants to push it deep down and pretend that it doesn't exist.

I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I'm fucking terrified about my future right now. I've always been that way, and now even more so.

And to think that I was doing ok just a few hours ago.