[Kindred]

I was never formally diagnosed as bulimic, but in the few months before I developed a restrictive eating disorder, I would purge. That started by me leaning over, and discovering that by clenching my muscles I could throw up the contents of my stomach. I then started chewing food, like chocolate, and spitting it out because I didn't want to have the calories. I had no idea at the time this was abnormal behavior, I actually thought myself innovative. Anyway, one day I forgot to spit the food out, and remembered I could make myself throw up with barely any effort, so I did that. Then started doing it more and more frequently.