Hi Sophie!
Let me tell you something...
If you find the guy of your life, he WILL NOT push you to have ANYTHING if you dont want to do it... He will wait untill the end of time (i know i would). If that person loves you, and you arent ready for sex or even cuddling, he wont push...
But if he does, and if he is agressive, its not the right person for you... And what Chantal said: were you raped, or abused? I know how that can be a metal scar forever...
Be strong!