[KeyofHeart]

Even though my riends love me.
Damn it, anxiety. Social anxiety. I feel like im being judged and I just can't bring myself to say hi to some people sometimes.
I've started to self-harm last month and I almost hung myself but I didn't. I didn't tell anyone except a few best friends. The reason why I almost did was because I felt so invisible even though I have the most amazing friends in my life and I don't neessarily go through bullying- I have body image/somewhat an eating disorder and I've been trying to recover.
It's so complicated- my frineds will think im all emo and stuff, but it is scientifially proven that cutting does help to cope by releasing endorphins. So... This is my way to cope. I've told most of my friends that are girls , but they are trying to get me to stop. I'm so confused right now and I just sit there and cry every night while SHing.