Hey SJ, I know what you're going through a bit. I'm a gay trans guy.
A lot of the time, I'll come out to people, as trans, and they'll say "no you're not" or "but you're so feminine" because, I've never been the most masculine person, but I'm a guy. My body is wrong and I'm on the road to getting it to at least where I'm more comfortable with it. And I'm horribly uncomfortable with being considered a girl, and even though I'm "feminine" at times, I'm not <i>female</i>.
As far as sexuality goes, I wouldn't worry too much about putting a label on it, your sexuality and your gender are seperate. And when you're trying to figure yourself out, remember that the label is just something to call yourself, don't let it define you.
You sound pretty trans to me, because you don't identify with your body and all. But I mean, it's up to you to decide what to call yourself and what to do about it.
It might help to read about other FTM's and about the transitioning process, what you might want to do, or not. I recommend "Just add Hormones" by Matt Kailey. He's a gay FTM.
And plus, there's a ton of trans people on youtube blogging about their lives, you can watch some of that if you want too.
And if you want to talk you can
PM me. I know a lot of trans people and I've been on hormone therapy for a while, so I might be able to answer any questions. (Actually, anyone who reads this and has questions, feel free to ask.)