Online dating -
March 4th 2014, 12:56 AM
So, I feel awkward for posting this but I don't really know I feel like I need to get it out. I've been posting way too much on this forum lately.
I was talking to my dad and he knows that one of the things that bothers me is the fact that I've never had a relationship. So he was talking to me and he suggested that I try online dating. This is a really awkward suggestion because I feel like I'll just be destined to meet some weird men but I am not good at meeting people in real life so this could be a potential way to meet people.
I was talking to my friend and he agreed that it could be a good way for me to meet people. He knows I am on guard with people and he was saying in order to get past that barrier online 'dating' might be the way to go.
But, I am scared. I don't do well at putting myself out there and putting pictures on the internet for people to judge would be really hard. And, opening myself up to rejection and all the things that come along with dating scare me. However, I would, I guess, like to meet someone and this might be the way to do it. Even if it doesn't work it might be a way to start the process until I get better at opening myself for more.
I mean, I don't really know. I don't know what is best at this point in time. I know I am struggling with depression and thinking about entering into dating worries me and I wonder if it is right. But, this is something I can grab onto and change in my life and this is a change I have been looking for so why not go for it? I've been thinking about giving it three months or something like that and if it doesn't work I could stop paying for the site I am considering. My friend was telling me there are free sites that are reputable but I don't know of any so I am going to go with one that you pay for. I just don't know if this is the right step to take. People absolutely scare me. Men scare me and I mean, I don't have a whole lot to offer in a relationship. I don't know.
Any thoughts or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
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