My conception

[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]I’ve recently discovered there is video of my parents having sex. But this isn’t just any regular time. It’s the exact time I was conceived. They kept and saved it for that exact reason. I came across it and watched it. I couldn’t look away. It was like a train wreck. I should be watching but I couldn’t help myself.

Why am I obsessed with seeing this. Better yet why are my parents keeping this?[/size][/color][/font]

[Astro04]

I'm sorry you saw that, It's complicated...
If they kept this, there's a reason.
I'm sorry, you shouldn't have watched it. With time you will understand why
Don't think about it.

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

It might be sentimental for them and that’s why they kept it. It was an important moment in their life since it caused you to exist. Now it’s one of those things that will be burned into your brain for a while, but try and find things to do to distract yourself from thinking about it.

[Querencia]

Hey there.

While it is impossible to know exactly why your parents kept the video, a likely reason may be due to the sentimental value of it as Dez suggested. After all, that was the moment responsible for bringing you into their lives.

However, I’m sorry you had to come across it. Seeing your parents in a sexual situation can be incredibly uncomfortable, and ironically, sometimes when we are uncomfortable it can be hard to look away or stop thinking about it. I’d like to reassure you that you aren’t weird for thinking about it a lot, because you saw something that was 100% out of the norm so of course it is going to weigh on your mind.

I suggest distracting yourself with hobbies, friends, and occupying your time with other things that keep your mind off of what you saw. It may not seem like it right now, but eventually you won’t find yourself thinking about it at all. Take care of yourself!

[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]Thanks for the input. Being distracted does help. But in my downtime I still picturing it. Mostly my moms body and how much she was enjoying it. Which is honestly a bit more disturbing. Maybe I trying to not think of dad . Even had urge to view it again which is even more disturbing. I've had to fight myself to make sure I don't do it.

I feel like maybe I'll need a therapist or something.[/size][/color][/font]