miss.lonely

[toomuch]

soo, a while ago i started becoming more and more distant from all my friends whom i have been friends with since..likkee kindergarten, so yeah for a long time! but now they are all just acting so wierd around me. and i am now in night school because i skipped school for so long and because my grades are horrible...since i couldnt concentrate on ay school work. i just dont know what to do because they are all so into pot smoking, which i quit not too long ago. and i dont want to be around it any more. also i really dont want to be around one of my friends whos trying to get into cocaine...i know if im around that something bad will happen for other past reasons.
i know in my head i dont want to be around these people or have any contact with them since they are all such drama queens. but from some reason i still have a feeling that i need to still be friends with them and that i want to be back in thier "group"
i have plenty of guy friends..its jsut id like to have some more girl friends you know?
im not sure what exactly to do..i was just trying to get all my thoughts on this down...
i am gettin pretty lonely as well and i HATE that feelings since ive dealt with it pretty much all of my life.

[Just Peachy.]

Hey there,

I am sorry that you are dealing with this right now. Honestly, if you want to stay away from the drugs, then do it and don't look back. I wouldn't want to see you fall back into those habits, because they are so unhealthy for you. You need to go with your gut on this one. What is your gut telling you? It sounds like you ultimately don't want to hang out with that crowd. And the doubts you are having about that (Wanting to be back in their group) probably comes from lack of friends, so you're going to go to revert back to those friends because it's easier that way. You're in school, trying to get your life back together. I think you need to focus on that. Don't ever go backwards in life. Always move forward. With that, can you make new friends in night school? Just make small talk with people, trying to find common interests. No matter how long it takes to make friends, don't go back to the old ones. You're going to find yourself in the same struggles you were in once before.

Take care,
-Lyndsee