I am sorry (Content: Depressive mood)

[NeuroBeautiful]

I am sorry
Though I do not know why
I feel the guilt bubbling inside.

I am sorry
Though I do not know how,
how I became so afraid
to eat
to be present
to be alive
How did I learn that I will never belong
every space I occupy, every ounce of oxygen I breathe
is all a big mistake
How did I become so ashamed of my existence?

I am sorry
Though I do not know when
Since when did setting boundaries feel so wrong?
As babies we are born unafraid to express our needs
When did it start to feel so impossible and so unnatural?

I am sorry
Though I do not know who
To whom do I need to apologize?
Perhaps to myself
For the self-loathing I put myself through
For the toxic shame I collapse into
For hiding and denying my needs

I am sorry
Though I do not know if
I can forgive myself
or learn to love myself.



This is my first poem written in a REALLY long time!

[Mindfulness.]

This is a really good piece of writing.

[NeuroBeautiful]

Originally Posted by Dawn.

This is a really good piece of writing.

Thank you!

[Astro04]

This is fantastic

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

This was really good. I enjoyed reading this, I read it many times and I liked how you ended this.

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You did a great job!

[NeuroBeautiful]

Thank you Luca, Emmie and Dez

This was beautifully written, Violet; and I can relate to this so much.

I hope you'll share more of your writing when the muse strikes.

[This_is_the_greatest_plan]

Originally Posted by NeuroBeautiful

This is my first poem written in a REALLY long time!

That was beautiful, and Im so sorry you feel that way. Yeah, it can feel really wrong to say what we need. I get that sometimes too and Im sorry you get the same.

[NeuroBeautiful]

Originally Posted by Butterscotch.

This was beautifully written, Violet; and I can relate to this so much.

I hope you'll share more of your writing when the muse strikes.

Thank you for the feedback and encouraging words. I hope so too. I feel better about my problems when I can write about it.

Originally Posted by This_is_the_greatest_plan

That was beautiful, and Im so sorry you feel that way. Yeah, it can feel really wrong to say what we need. I get that sometimes too and Im sorry you get the same.

Thank you! It is a hard feeling to go through but I'm working on improving.

[XxAmethystWillowxX]

This is an extremely emotionally well-written piece. Please do not ever stop writing.

[Soda_Voxel]

This is gorgeous and relatable!