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They say I'm gentle, I'm kind, I'm safe
They say "we need more people like you, in this cruel, bitter world"
They say, "you bring a smile on my face"
"You bring light and warmth, in times of darkness"


They say they see improvements,
They can tell my effort is real
They say I learned to manage stress,
and that I'm now a little more healed

They say they feel inspired,
By my journey, of struggle and pain
They say that I'm recovered now
But I just don't feel the same

They say I've came so far, that
I've learned and changed and grown
But so many times, I've cried all night
And at mornings I feel so low

I keep crying, I just want the pain to go away
I keep thinking of dying, my past haunts me every day
The images wont leave me alone
I still keep on trying, I'm not hiding from people as much as before
but I feel drained out.
I just don't know, anymore

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I agree with Dez, I like that as well. I can really relate to this so thank you for sharing it. I especially like this part.

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You have a great gift, I too love to write to express my emotions. I empathize completely about where you're coming from.. It's hard to face such obstacles and feel like no one can see your pain even when you're trying to hide it.