Cleaned my room spotless
Cuddled with my cat
My best friend and roommate
Till he fell asleep on my lap
I lie awake beside him
Squinting my eyes to hold back my crying
Visualizing ways I could try dying
"Forgot" my blade at home
Because that's the only way I can go
To class and last
without ending up in the bathroom stall
Wiping blood off the floor and wall
I pray this time I won't need stitches
But the urge to cut deeper itches
All I could do is stick out the storm
But I just don't see the point anymore
I just want release once and for all
Like a collection of colorful butterflies
Springing out from an unlocked jar
I just want to be free
Free from the chains and the weight I carry
Free from the thoughts and memories I bury
Free from the prison complex hosted in my mind
And free from the electric fence I finally leave behind