Triggering (Suicide): A poem I wrote

This is a poem I wrote. Umm.... I'm not sure if I'm supposed to post something like this so if not you can take it off here but I figured I should at least try.
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IF I DIED...
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Look at what they did to me
With wordy weapons of flames
Now bloody tears fall, you see
One day they'll stand in shame

I know that people wouldn't cry
They would laugh if I died
I've always wanted to try
Because I've always been denied

Sorry I didn't leave sooner
I thought I had another chance
To finally be healed for the better
I thought this feeling was just a trance

But my life is getting harder
It wouldn't move back in place
People see my scars of shame
Which causes hate to build even warmer

Hopeless days, and sleepless nights
Keep appearing in its ways
I'm trying to win this fight
But now I'm far too weary, so should I die?

If I died, I'd wave goodbye
With a tear in my eye
I'd breathe my last breath
And then I'd greet death

That's what everyone's counting on
And that may be a lie
Or that may be true
But it's what I should do

I'm sorry to those who care
Who would bother to shed a tear
I'm sorry to my haters
For once trying so hard to stay alive

But I give up, so this is goodbye

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This is so emotional! I know you can get through this.

Thank you both so much.

This poem is amazingly emotional and sad. Each stanza built up to the powerful ending. You should definitely write more.

I hope you are alright. I'm glad you're able to express yourself through poetry.