TeenHelp - Triggering (Abuse): A rambling poem about my dad

I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you,
But did that give you an excuse for what you put me through?
No. Nothing I did could deserve something so despicably mean.
You broke me, my trust, everything in between..
You never considered my emotions
I just tried to hold on and go with the motions.
You complained when I shed my tears,
But you never blinked when causing my fears.
You put me through a hellish childhood
I reacted the only way I could.
I withdrew from everybody, and lost trust in you.
I was so alone and had nobody to turn to.
One night I found relief from being sad
But then you complained about every scar I had.
You called me fat, so I lost weight.
Then you complained I was underweight.
Nothing ever pleases you
I didn't know what I could do.
You brought my self-esteem down to zero
So I rescued myself and became my own hero.
I got out of your hellish thing you called a life.
Why did you cause me so much strife?
Did you really hate me that much, "Dad"?
Well, I'm out, hope you're glad.
But now, who cooks your meals and cleans up after you?
Who does the things I used to do?
Now that you pushed me out of your life,
Guess you'll have to depend on your wife.
Oh, did you divorce her a fifth time? Huh?
Well then, you're on your own, duh.
I'm no longer there to be your punching bag
You treated me with as much worth as a torn-up rag
So, "dad", are you happier now that I'm gone?
You always tried to use me as your pawn
You used me to get sympathy and then you'd hate.
Well, I'm gone, hope you don't believe in karma and fate.