Scilence (poem about telling my parent my secret (something I have yet to do))

[Lelo]

The scilence screams it's ear piercing shrill
As you give me look that is bound to kill
I listened to you, I did as you said
But now that you know, you are wishing me dead
You said you were done with the secrets and lies
But I still wonder what you'd do if you ever heard my cries
The ones that were caused by the unbearable pain
That made me cringe and ruined my brain
It comes as no surprise to me
That you never bothered and just let me be
That you ignored the fact I was clearly dying
And refused to believe that I was really trying
But still you sit here mad as hell
And I am just waiting until you yell
Your face is now covered by your hands
Where to send me? Your making plans
I look out into the distance, sit there trying to see
Where Exactlly the future is headed for me
When I look back your face has changed
The feeling of regret had been enough for it to be rearranged
Your still as a rock, and it's changing it to a mood that does not belong
But though your poised I know your regreting ever asking what's wrong
Your hating yourself for making me talk
For ripping off my well secured "lip lock"
I have no sympathy for you now
Because I told you it wasn't your buissiness and that you shouldn't plow
I do not care that my words acted as a switch
Because guess what? The truth's a bitch
I told you I hit, purge and cut
And you never even tried to keep your mouth shut
You called me names I've never even heard
Called me ungreatful, said I got more than deserved
But now your quite, speechless, and weak
And that hurt look in your I makes me feel like a sneak
I Am now expecting a tear from your eye
So nothing prepared me for when you said "go die"

[Disappearing]

This struck a cord with me. Good luck talking to your parent. I hope it goes well.